Since no one asks, It was like an Expectation vs reality.

I own a high quality abnormally loud diy speaker but I'm relying on a built-in equalizer from my(our) computer.

why is also my music kinda repetitive?

I lost about learning more to the music since my dad destroyed our electronic piano...

ngl I have low knowledge about music theory.

I don't watch tutorial videos because it feels like you're copying them.

I am not famous and good at making music content like my favorite music artist such as:

Bossfight, Noisestorm, Sabrepulse, ZUN, Waterflame, Dimrain47, Stonebank, MUZZ, Au5, RamesesB, Feint, Delta Heavy, Dimensions, ParagonX9, Soutfast, Meganeko, F777 and more.

is this message is a confession?

I'm afraid not.